I was speaking to you on the thursday night, you was very breathless. The doctors made you an appointment to have some bloods to check for low iron the next day. you went for the bloods and once you got out of the taxi you just colapsed. The doctor managed to bring you back but then in the ambulance you left again, this time they couldnt help you. A blood clot on your lung took you from me. 

that was 8 years ago and i am only starting to relise that you are not coming back.